Nerdy Spoons ;)

Hey!

So I'm at a conference for high school students to come together in the capitol of this great state and pretend that we are the house of reps and the senate. It's actually really fun, but it's also a nerd conference that requires you spend four days living in a hotel in the capitol city. It's called Youth in Government, or YIG. But I don't have that many nerdy friends. I mean, I don't really have that many friends at all, but then you get into who's nerdy enough to come on this trip, and you're left with just one, which is fine, because she's my best friend. But her boyfriend is also nerdy enough to come on this trip. And he doesn't like me.

Anyway, last night, there was a dance at the conference, and guess who she (my best friend) hung out with. Not me. Him. So I was left with literally no one to talk to. I was sitting by myself at a table. But while I was sitting there feeling sorry for myself, some girls came over to me, and asked if I had a deck of playing cards. And of course, I did. (fun fact: I carry this GIANT purse, in which I carry, like EVERYTHING.) So I pulled them out, expecting them to take them and leave, but they said, "Wanna play cards with us?" Their names were Anna and Starr. We sat down, and they went and found some of their other friends, and soon enough there were ten of us sitting on the floor in the ballroom lobby playing spoons with our credentials because we didn't have any spoons. (I actually did, but not enough to play spoons with.)

But I think God sent them to me. He knew how much I felt sorry for myself, and how I was doubting the possibility that someone would actually choose me over someone else, that I am ever actually wanted. He was using this to remind me that I can still have fun, even without any of my actual friends. And He showed me that even if I'm not wanted at first, I can become wanted, assuming I find the right person. I don't know, this may be complete crap, but those girls saved my night from being a compete and utter disaster, and I know that God did that.

Also, it's really pretty early in the morning, which is kind of killing me, so if any of that didn't make sense, I apologize. Feel free to comment to express any confusion, or anything else for that matter.

Thanks!! I hope you truly seek God today!

A Prayer for Peace and Comfort

Dear Lord, 

You know what's on my heart. You know how he hurt me, and how he continues to hurt me in all of his little ways. You know how I want to hurt him back, but Lord, I know that's not what you would have me do. 

Father, I need your peace. Give me comfort, Lord. Help me live for you daily, and give me the peace and comfort and strength to do so. But also, help me step out of my comfort zone. 

Be with me, and help me deal with every temptation, and every heartache, and every moment of despair. 

In Jesus' Name I pray, 
Amen

iPod Shuffle

Hey world of online people!!

So, yesterday was an incredibly difficult day. My chorus teacher went all psycho crazy woman on me, and acted like I haven't put so much of my time, energy and focus into her class as I have, and was just generally horrible to me and a couple of my friends. It was just bad.

Well, after school, I went home and took a shower. Before I got in, I hit shuffle on a playlist that I made a little while ago with VBS songs on it from this past summer, as well as lots of other upbeat Christian music. Well, what songs came up as the first three, but the three best possible songs to dance and generally goof off to. So in my shower, I danced and goofed off to fun music, which severely improved my otherwise wretched day.

I don't really know what else I could even say about this, except it was just definitely a God thing. I had this crazy sense of God each time the song changed to reveal yet another goof-off worthy song. God knew what I needed, and He took care of me.

Crazy Days!!

Aloha interwebiverse!!

I hope the past month has been a pleasant one!! Sorry I haven't posted... I've been a little busy. And truthfully, I've been kind of drifting through life without really LOOKING for God. But I'm back.

So Youth Sunday (the Sunday when the youth group leads the entire worship service) is coming up at my church, so we had a music and skit practice on Sunday night. We were singing songs some of the girls didn't know, so we went to a classroom to practice. And anyway, these girls in particular are significantly younger than I am, like four or five years younger. But I had a BLAST scream-singing the songs as much as possible, and yet still being musical. I don't know. . . There's something about being crazy for God that's just AWESOME!!! And kind of renewing I think. Just to let loose and do something really fun that also glorifies God... it just feels right.