Hey there!
So sorry once again for my infrequent posts here on the SGM blog! I've been pretty busy participating in the program rather than just watching it unfold. Anyway, today we left STP. I drove myself home and haven't seen any of my STP people since then. :( I definitely cried on the way home. But I've seen God working in my life and in my heart in so very many ways. For example, this summer we did evangelism on the streets of Gatlinburg, and I never really loved it. I mean, I enjoyed it sometimes, but I was never so incredibly excited to go evangelize. Street evangelism always drains me, and it honestly just wasn't my absolute favorite part of the summer. But it definitely gave me a heart for the lost and broken, and I didn't even see it until today. Today, after I got home, I hung out with a pretty good friend of mine who isn't really a Christian. I was talking to him about how frustrated he is with work, and with his life, and I asked if he was content, if he was satisfied and at peace. He looked at me and said no, then kind of shook his head, because he knew what I was going to say. But still I tried to tell him about the peace that only God can give. I tried to tell him that he won't find any real security in wealth, and that wealth won't give him less cause to worry. But he just didn't care. His heart was so hardened to the promises the Lord has offered, and it broke my heart. I literally got into my car after we hung out and just started bawling, and calling out to God. But if I had never gone to STP, I don't know if I even would have ever asked him those questions, and I know that I wouldn't have seen his brokenness, his hardened heart, or his lack of peace the way I did today. I'm still heart-broken for him, but I'm so thankful that I got to experience growth this summer that gave me the eyes to see more clearly the pain and reality of my friend. So that was amazing! And if you could be praying for him, I would hugely appreciate it!
I love you!
Becca
