What an amazing day!!

So today, we did a prayer walk on campus. Me and Abby walked around praying for the people we knew, the people we didn't know, the campus in general, the various dorms, etc. It was really awesome. A lot of fun, and also just a really cool experience. Talking to God, out loud, as you walk the paths you walk on a regular basis is a really really cool and awesome and humbling situation.

Also, we had Fresh tonight, and it was cool, because there was a girl there named Darcy, and she asked if we could hold hands while we prayed, which was just super special because that's something we used to do in youth group. I miss that.

One other thing, last Thursday night, after Nav Night, I came back to my dorm kind of in a frenzy, and definitely in a not-so-happy mood. Trey, in his Nav Night talk, said something about religion getting you nowhere, and how what we have in Christianity is not really a religion. Well, a guy I know from back home would have severely disliked this talk, and I know this solely because he has a blog, and made one post entitled "it's not a relationship, it's a religion." His point was that Christians tend to demonize religion, and while I kind of think he has a point, he also kind of upset me with that post, because it was definitely in response to my church. Anyway, because of my frenzy, when I came back to my room, my roommate asked me what was bothering me. I told her about my friend's blog post, and about Trey's talk. She thought it was really interesting. She grew up Mormon, and was taught that if she didn't marry a Mormon and have a child and jump through all these other hoops then she wouldn't go to heaven. I didn't tell her she was wrong, I just said that that was interesting, and that I didn't know that. But I think what I said, about nothing people can do ever being good enough for God really meant something to her. It's pretty humbling thinking that God even used my bad attitude about my friend to speak to my roommate's heart.

So this was random... Sorry

Hey everyone!

So I'm filling out my application to STP, and I'm pretty excited about it, but also I'm feeling a little... I don't know. I don't know how to describe it. I'm just thinking, I wish I could see myself the way everyone else sees me. I guess everyone has felt that at some point or other, but I don't think I've ever felt it like this. I don't like this feeling. I just want to know what the girls in my Bible study see, and what my brother sees, and how that random guy I sit in front of in math sees. I feel like all these people around me, even my closest friends don't see me as I am. They don't see me as I see myself. I guess I'm feeling a little unloved right now. I don't have many close friends near me at the moment, and even the ones I do have aren't really that close. It's kind of tough for me right now. I'm missing home, and all the comforts that home provides, especially that of the people who have known me longest in the world. But none of that matters right now, and I know that. Sometimes life is just tough, and you have to persevere. I'm sorry, this isn't exactly what I thought I would be writing about. Sometimes Satan just wants to mess with you, but you can't let him win. He has already lost, every time we turn to Jesus. Remember that.

Love you!
Becca

P.S. Sorry, I know this isn't exactly an SGM, but I really wanted to share.