"Get Nicer or Stay Away"

Today was a little rough.

Well, a little is kind of an understatement. I spent the first half in a horrible mood, the third quarter not realizing that I had offended my best friend, and the last quarter almost entirely in tears, with about an hour and a half of reprieve because I was in public. But that whole time I was near tears.

The worst part of today was this afternoon. I got an incredibly harsh text from the friend of a friend of mine. We used to be friends, but that kind of ended. Anyway, he texted me basically telling me that I'm a horrible person, and a consistent hypocrite, and that I don't know what "nice" even means, let alone how to act like it. That really really hurt. It sounds silly, but it made me cry for a couple hours pretty much non-stop. He told me that I'm nothing but mean to him, and our mutual friend, and that I'm horrible for our mutual friend, and my options are "get nicer, if that's even possible, or stay away." (That's a paraphrase, not a direct quote.) I was heartbroken. I didn't know what to do. But then out of the blue, it hit me: pray about it. There's this song we sang at VBS this past summer that goes "Don't worry about anything. Instead pray about everything." So I sat down to write a prayer (that's kind of a thing I do) when I saw a prayer I had written down earlier this morning for that person who was really mean to me. I prayed that God would bless him, and that I could show him love, and be at peace with him.

Well, after he sent this horrible text, I prayed, and asked God for comfort, and wisdom. And then I replied. And after that, (because its my way of releasing emotional pressure,) I wrote both him and our mutual friend a letter. In the text and in both letters, I can honestly say that I was completely loving to both of them. I didn't say a single thing out of spite or anger. It was honestly love. It was amazing.
But anyway, now I am feeling a little upset by it, and I don't think I'll be able to keep up my non-aggressive, completely loving replies up tomorrow. I can already hear some of my sassy remarks that might come out. But I don't want them to. So if you could pray for me, that I could be completely loving, I would appreciate it.