Amazing Grace!!

We all know the song Amazing Grace by John Newton. Whether you grew up in church or not, you've probably heard the tune and the words at least a few times in your life. Well, at Nav Night tonight we sang this song, which, let's be real for a second, is one of my favorite hymns, after Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing and It is Well With My Soul and just before Be Thou My Vision and I Have Decided to Follow Jesus (sorry for the tangent), so I'm pretty happy. But one verse really struck me tonight.
The Lord has promised good to me./His word my hope secures./He will my Shield and Portion be/As long as life endures.
I really love this song, but I've never felt particularly attached to this verse. I really love the verse that begins "the earth shall soon dissolve like snow." But when we were singing, I don't really know why, I was just put at ease. I've had some minor heartache over a friend recently, and I found such comfort in this thought that "He will my Shield and Portion be as long as life endures." Now as all this nonsense with my friend has been going on, a verse has been caught in my head, Psalm 118:8 "It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man." My friend has really let me down, and I've just been reminded to take refuge in the Lord rather than in my earthly friendships, and this verse really did that too. But God is my portion, not my friendships.

But also, and I know I've said it before, finding a husband is something that's always kind of in the back of my head, like it's permanently on my to-do list. That's kind of a silly way to phrase it, after all, I'm only 19, but one day getting married is something that really matters to me. But no matter how much I try to forget about this desire of mine, no matter what I distract myself with or whatever, it's always there, lingering in my head. But one other way this verse in particular comforted me is that the Lord has promised good to me, and maybe that doesn't mean a husband, but it does mean good. And who knows what's good for me better than God. So yeah, maybe I won't find a husband, but if I don't, it's because God has something else good for me. Which is also very comforting.