Kind of in a mood

So, I didn't mention this last time, but some personal stuff has happened to me lately, and to protect the innocent, I can't reveal much more than that. But some friendships I have, that I hold pretty dear, may be changing pretty majorly in the near future, and I don't really like that. And I'm just in this mood. I have a friend who I've tried calling half a dozen times in the past three-ish weeks, and I haven't heard back from her hardly at all since then, and definitely haven't gotten a call back from her, which has left me feeling pretty abandoned. And the semester is almost over, but I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed with everything going on around me, and this summer will also be pretty busy, not that that's a bad thing, but I just feel like I have so many things to do that I don't really have time to just enjoy myself. And my roommate insists on leaving the window open seemingly all the time, which is fine except that it's allergy season, so my eyes water and itch, plus it's hot outside, which is making my room really hot, and I really don't like the heat. At all. (Seriously, though, I'm sweating.) And I just want to be alone, to have a private cry, but my roommate is here, reading, so I can't even make any real noise, let alone cry. And just to ice that cake of misery, a kid from back home who recently moved away has been doing some pretty stupid stuff, getting involved in some really unfortunate activities and has had a pretty bad attitude about everything and everyone, and my sister and I kind of update each other on him, and she just sent me another update, and he's not doing well. It's not really a bad sort of day, but I feel bad. I wish I was alone, in a cold room. But wishing any of these things right won't make it so. I can't change the past, and thus fix the friendships that are changing, and I can't make my friend call me/pick up the phone, and I can't get away from everything that needs doing, and I can't kick my roommate out, and I can't change the kid from home. But I guess here's what I can do: I can adjust my current behavior so my friendships won't change for the worse, I can remember that whether or not my friend calls, I have other friends who love me and do call me back/pick up, I know I'll be alone in the shower, so I could go do that, and I can ALWAYS pray for that friend who's making some mistakes.

I know this wasn't a very encouraging post, but I needed to write this for me. To give myself some perspective.